Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Far away from her

Yesterday, I took a phone call to mother to say happy spring festival. While chatting with each other, my mother told me that she stayed at home for waiting for my phone call and felt sad because of separate rather than go to her office for a whole week after I went to the US, that is really amazing for me.
In my mind, my mother is a workaholic, who devotes herself completely to her work. While I was growing up, my mother always left me behind and went to other cities for her work. Sometimes, even though she came home after work, she arrived home late rather than have dinner with me. When I was ill, she had no time to take me to a hospital; when I was feeling lonely and sad, she had no time to comfort me. In my memory, almost half of my birthday, I celebrated it by myself.
When I was 18 years old, I went to other city in China to get my bachelor degree leaving my hometown, also far away from my mother. So I could stay with her less than 3 months per year. Before I went to university I told her "we lost nearly on third of time to live together in the passing 18 years, however in the following ten to twenty years it is very possible for us to just have one third of time to live together".That sentence made us cry. It is easy to image that, in the future,when she becomes older and even sick wanting me to accompany with her, I will not have opportunity to satisfy her requirement because of my work.
It seems inevitable for us to avoid separate. Because in our perspective, only without the help of parents and doing everything by oneself, the young person can grow up quickly and have ability enough to make his dream come true. When my mother was 20 years old, she left her parents to get her bachelor degree. After her undergraduate education, she worked in Beijing which is far away from her hometown. Now, I choice is same as her choice she persist in her early life, studying aboard and making myself become powerful rapidly. Nowadays, I understand that we love each other pretty much, but because of our choice love is the only thing we can have.
God is equality, if you want to achieve something others doesn't have, you have to give up something everyone have. As for my mother and me, we choose to turn into the people who have talent and ability to make our world more wonderful than before, we have to give up a plenty of time to live together.And love is enough for us.

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